Life Happens

How close can one get to a person? ..Times when her silence screams in your ears . When every breath of hers conveys a message . Fears translated into just a blink , a blank gaze . Its hard when someone becomes an crucial cog in your life. But what if she becomes your life ? What then ? The moment you realize it, you feel closer to heaven .She sets on fire emotions you thought you never had.Caresses the spirit inside you . Teaches you things you never knew about yourself .She gives you hope . Something to believe in . Life becomes a Dodge Charger in full throttle . This is heaven . Frost was right after all . Life is never an easy ride they say. You win some , you lose some . After every rise there is a fall . All these lines, proverbial . Cracks you on the inside, fear seeping through . You know what is coming, but just don't know how . You think there is nothing you cant deal with as long as you have her by your side. But then , your worst fear manifests in different ways .You try to prepare for whats to come . Reinforce whatever courage you can muster .You have no intention to give up . The world is fine as long as she is by your side . What ., what the fuck are you going to do , when you find out that its her that you are going to lose . ? Game Over .



Its over Superman.! She was your Kryptonite .

Chains of Love ..

Have you felt that you are better than the youngsters around you ? Have you laughed at their antics that they perceive is rational ? Have you felt that you are wiser than them and that the younger generation is as brainy as donkeys? Have you felt that the younger generation have no element of rationality in them ? If you are nodding to these words of mine , you better not be whining about how your elders treated you . Slowly but surely I'm realizing why my parents thought i was a retard when in my head i was Einstein . Achievements of mine were branded as immature and unreal . Future plans of mine were trashed , tagged shallow and that it lacked prospect . They knew what was best for me . The trusted themselves in that . I was only a puppet or rather a slave , they would decide for me . Every time i raised my voice , my liberation seeking soul was put down . My age was laughed at . My generation scorned at . For them , i was just like a puppy on a leash . who doesn't know better . Didnt know shit from fragrance . As i defied their chains of love and care . I made mistakes . I learnt from them . Mistake I wouldn't have made if i had followed their code . Now where am I ? I don't really know. But the knowledge that i gained from my mistakes is far more valuable to me now . Its not second hand knowledge . It fuels the heart . It gives you the strength to stand up every time you fall . Something your training wheels cant teach you ..

Gotta love shoppin for girls..!! :D

Real Estate...Automobiles..Vacancies...Sales..Rentals...Matrimonial...Not to worry,that was me going through the newspaper. The perv inside me sniggers at the irony of finding Matrimonial right next to Sales and Rentals. Lately Ive been doing some intense thinking.Very intense.I ve always had this frame of mind which detested 'arranged marriages',but right now i stand corrected.I'm wiser now. Think i would love the idea. Just imagine. Shopping for Girls..!!! Its every guys dream. Hey! don't get me wrong, isn't that what it actually is ? You go to her place. Scan her from head to toe. Like I'm buying a slave or cattle or something and when I'm satisfied by her 'physical attributes' and the gold her father is willing to lavishly cover her with. Its Match On !! The way i see it ; its a win-win situation , as the groom , i get the party money, a new car and a 'woman' ,Oh wait and a free meal.!! . How can i not agree to such an arrangement ? Who actually cares if i love her or not ? Will I ever ..

Love is a SIN ?? o_O

"How could you do this to us ? ..we have given you life, cared for you for all these years,catered to your every whim and fancy..how could you !! "- Cliche' dialog ; Every Malayalam movie. This is the dialog dramatically uttered by the parent in a so called 'love story'. Growing up watching these movies which contained these kinda scenarios, i went 'he he' . As i got older i realized that these were not just movie dialogs. These were real life situations. These dramatic utterances were soaked in despair , anguish and disappointment. The turbulence of emotions that the parent goes through wen they find that their son/daughter is in love . Is being in love a sin ? I understand that they are wiser than us, they have decades of life experience to back it up . What do we have ? This heaven of a feeling that makes us believe that we are closer to god . But then don't we have the right to be heard ? I'm pretty sure that most of us have had to go through ' sit- down - get- yelled -at ' event when that happens. To us they might be over reacting . But then again , what would i know about parenting ? But i can definitely lent my voice to the other side . I think the new generation is smarter . They seem to be much more mature in the pursuit of their mate. They take a calculated decision . The Personality matters a lot .Its the most important one . They make sure that they don't end up in a loveless marriage . The make sure that they don't end up with a psycho bitch or a douchebag . The parents might have taken care of their kids for about 1/4 of their life. But they have 3/4 of the life reaming .They have the major events of their lives left. Don't they have the right to decide who they spend their life with ? Parents seek an attractive , employed groom who's financially secure . Something is wrong with this picture . They missed out personality, character!! Something the girl or guy finds out when its too late. But what can they do now. Its all done with and the parent of the either side would try to convince the wedded to hang in there . Time will bring love they say . Yes . It would have .Back when life used to be black and white . Back when your parents got married . In the 21st century , if a guy cant find a soul mate, if he opts to find a bride through arranged marriage .Well..it makes me wonder. What is wrong with him ? Is he such a bad person ? Is he a Momma's boy ? Has lost his faith in love ? Is he gay ?? . Don't know. But i know this , spending your life with the wrong person can get you to Heaven..why ? ..Cos you have already been through Hell .. Good Luck People .Hope you find the one you are meant to be with . It would be perfect if your parents support your decision . GOD BLESS . :)

and heres something to think about ..Is it the insecurities that drive parents into being such controlling angels ?..must ponder on it ..;)

Femme' Fatale.

..60..65...70...80...ooh la laaa...84 ..is s what my digital speedometer read as i was stealing glances at it desperately trying to concentrate on the road .Close to noon,considerable amount of traffic.Just the way i like it . Weaving through stacked cars had become a part of my death wish.even so , i loved it .it takes hardly a second to overtake a car. Like Cris Cornell said ' speed means freedom of the soul' . I shifted gears , pulling up next to the car in an attempt to put it in the mirror, even if i didn't have one. At around 60Km/hr ,I pulled up along side the car, just in time to see a bus coming from the opposite direction.Like I always do , I did my mental math. Worst case scenario: I would have a minimum of 4 -5 feet between the car and the bus as they move past each other.Good enough i guess. Shifted gears again, full throttle at an RPM of around 7 x1000 . Then my world was all slow motion from thereon . Just like what you see in John Woo movies. I glanced at the car driver: a fair ,slender, 'bangled ' wrist came into view..my world froze.Felt my heart stop.'shit!!!' the tiny voice in my head yelled. Was i too late to pull out?? ..did I have enough time to overtake the car???..i didn't know. for all I knew; this wasn't something I had prepared for...

reasons to bike slow..

"ooh, the new pulsar 220 cc , 20 Bhp , max speed 140 km/hr ".."hey! look at that..the new Apache RTR 180 ..so powerful..it goes upto 135 km/hr " ..isnt it the normal response when u you lay your eyes on these wheels ?..by the way .i got a simple queston..what do you guys look for in a bike ? looks ? power ? handling? riding comfort ? ...and why do u need these bikes ? these macho machines ..why ? ..ask your self these questions ..and if u come up with answers like.." the thrills of the speed" and " its a beautiful ride "..i could just nod at your statement..cmon answer truthfully..the most common truthful answer is;' to impress the ladies '.. ;) ..that would me my answer too ..but some observations changed my riding habits..

here are some of the observations..

* you burn rubber at almost 100 km/hr ..u go so fast , none of the pretty ladies would even get your number plate
* girls dont look at number plates
* to impress some girl on another bike you weave through traffic ..dude what if she dont have the same skills to follow you to see how good you ride.
*your bike better look good, keep it sparkling .
*go moderately slow , give them enough time to admire your ride and you ;)
*when you go 'vrooom ' past them , they aint sayin " look how fast he rides " ..but " that fool is gonna get himself killed "
* you go fast , you might miss some beauty by the bus stop ;)


there are more than just these reasons to go slower

* petrol man..none of these macho bikes hav milage above 40 km/l
* look at this traffic ( if you are in the city ) ..the moment u hit top gear ..its either a stupid auto or traffic light
* bad roads .u spoil your bike and it aint exactly a massage to your your spine.
* really bad roads
* you start observing things you never noticed before..


but the above aint the reasons that changed me..these are

* i would love to get back home and hug my mother and go " amma , im home"
*ride responsibly, cos u have no idea how much a mistake can affect peoples lives
* im resposible for my own life, but i dont want another person or family to suffer for any mistake of mine .
*when you have someone you love behind you ,putting themselves in your care , trusting you ..hope you dont try to impress them with speed and rash riding..you really want to put the one you love at risk ?
* better reach the destination late than never ..



.....please give this a thought

dusty minds..

"how narrow minded are you ?? " ..the question that runs though my mind whenever i see an 'elder' looking at the younger generation with despise ..i would mutter under my breath ; " hold on to those dead and decaying traditions and morals of yours , make sure that u take them to your grave " . For those who sense a tone of contempt for the wise in my voice , u are right . that was my intention ..i don't want to tickle with a feather..I'd rather prick with a pin . I've been on the wrong end of the keen eyes of the wise for many a times . those squinted judgemental eyes. evaluating you from the rotting moral , traditional values. Ask your own grandparents or just parents for that sake . their opinion about the present generation . They would give u the done and dusted dialogs , which would basically mean " the present generation is in the wrong and is doomed " . They fail , or refuse to accept that the moral values of our times are much different than what they had when they were young . We are a bit more broad minded . We exposed to the world culture not just the immediate society. whats with the term " immoral " ?? the term disgusts me , authority running the lives of people ?? . Is that whats it all about ?? ..who is to say which is morally right and which is wrong ? ..its the perception that changes the perspective .. so put in da most colloquial sense " some auntie who wasn't bothered to run her own family was peeking into other peoples lives and saw something she didn't like and told the whole neighbourhood about it and as more people came to know about it , it became an issue . why in gods name are v so concerned about our neighbours life ?? . Don't we have anything better to do ? ..i would expect the state to be in such conservative hands fr at least 20 more years..yes ..then these aunties would die out ... :P ..what i have to say is forgive and tolerate the minor things...save your reaction for the one that matters..